ilvadel

ohio medicaid

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 04:20:24 GMT

ohio medicaid sucks. going back to cali on the 22nd, and will get treatment. i should have had this done by now. i suck.

CMH

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 11:39:49 GMT

im home in ohio. its okay because im getting lots of rest.

a note about my last post. a close friend helped me see that im not scared as much as i regret neglecting my health. thanks dp.

in any case, im sleeping a lot, staying clean, and playing a little catch up afa my health goes.

more soon.

moms basement

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 10:13:22 GMT

so i might have the option of moving back to ohio to get the testicle excised and taking my carboplatin in ohio but it is socially unacceptable to live in your moms basement.

its probably time to grow a bald man ponytail, get rehab, get fat, and open a comic book store in columbus. you know what i mean.

i see my urologic oncologist on wednesday and will find out. last i heard, the carboplatin has to be taken in isolation, so if i have to recover in a home or a hospital, i may as well stay here. six of one, half dozen of the other.

sorry about the 'down' posts. ive been thinking a lot lately. one of these old days, i will post about my adventures in sf. much better reading, although a lot of it is also sad but a hell of a lot more interesting. [edited]

Brigitte

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 18:44:15 GMT

my sister Brigitte died 21 oct 2008. if i were a betting man, i would never have bet that she would be the first to go.
today i posted a comment to her myspace profile, it was a little ditty she taught me:

See, see my playmate,
Come out and play with me
And bring your dollies three
Climb up my apple tree
Slide down my rain barrel
Into my cellar door
And we'll be jolly friends
Forever more.

... and when i posted it i saw her status: Brigitte is at home.
and i reckon she is.

but i wish she was here.

testicular cancer

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 06:29:45 GMT

its been a couple weeks since i was diagnosed with testicular cancer. ive been through lots with my journey through aids, but this is probably the most scared ive been. when i was very sick with tb, invasive aspergillosis, and pneumocystis, it wasnt so bad because i was very 'out of it', thanks to febrile delirium (thank you febrile delirium).
next wednesday i see a urologic oncologist, and i believe they will excise the right testicle then. apparently it is a minor procedure.
http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Inguinal_orchiectomy
afterward, i will be treated with carboplatin, a chemotherapy agent. i think the urology clinic told me that i will take the treatment in isolation since carboplatin can cause further suppression of the immune system.
so this is my first post. not very cheerful, but i didnt have a lot to say before this.
wish me luck. im scared.

Writer's Block: Pet Peeve

Tue, 19 May 2009 04:52:23 GMT

What is the most annoying sound in the entire world?

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'wake up'

Writer's Block: Going Greener

Tue, 19 May 2009 04:49:12 GMT

How could you better “green” your life? What’s holding you back?

Sponsored by One Million Acts of Green brought to you by Cisco.

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go vegetarian. i did it for about 3.5 years and my doctor flipped. but, i was a bad vegetarian... a non-meatatarian i guess. in any case, my doctor said people with aids should not be vegetarians.

Writer's Block: Historian's Choice

Tue, 19 May 2009 04:42:23 GMT

If you could live in any era of history, which one would you choose?

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pre-aids

Writer's Block: Word for Word

Tue, 19 May 2009 04:41:05 GMT

How many (if any) songs do you know by heart? What are they?

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everything by wham.

Writer's Block: All About My Mother

Tue, 19 May 2009 04:40:00 GMT

Who is your favorite mother (the character, not the actress) from television or the movies?

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arnold, from torch song trilogy

Writer's Block: When I Grow Up

Tue, 19 May 2009 04:37:44 GMT

Do you ever do anything now that you swore you would never do when you were younger? What is it?

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cease having sex

Writer's Block: Left Behind

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 04:00:56 GMT

What do you want done with your body after you die?

Submitted By crunch_crunch

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my wish is that my corpse be disposed of as my mother wishes; this means burial in obetz cemetery near my sister. if i outlive mom, i want my body donated to science. theres a lot that can be learned from my corpse, since i have a "complex medical history". i want my titanium hips recycled unless the metal hip industry can use them to improve their product.
EDITED 7 April 2009: mom really wants me next to her. my wish is that my corpse is buried next to her regardless of who dies first. mom will be buried next to brigitte and i will be buried next to mom and aaron will be buried next to me. on the other side of bridgy will be her adult children.

its black, smells funny, and tastes like rust

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 07:51:23 GMT

but it's good for you, plus it's 24 proof.

i feel old.

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 00:57:19 GMT

its 24 proof

Writer's Block: Comebacks

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 03:29:49 GMT

Know any great comebacks?

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''That was a pretty good comeback. Speaking of comebacks, how's the cum in the back of your mouth?'' Credit for this one should go to CompuServe. My ''Big Brother'' worked there, and would let me play a computer game called ''Insult''.